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During eighth grade, a fat boy in my class was teased about being fat and not yet having started puberty. skins in PE, marching band practice in August when it was 90° and humid, it seemed nobody else had trouble going shirtless, so I did it. Then in junior high, when I realized that I was a gayling and started growing hair in my pits, I became self conscious. I don't think I have seen a photograph of me before age 12 during the summer with a shirt on.
Over that now but all that stuff from youth can really do a number on you. And it was nothing to do with my body in a way that I didn’t like how it looked, I am proportionate and was never unaware of it, but I felt exposed in less clothing in some way that I didn’t like. I felt weird in short sleeves until I was 23 or so. I think this results in a clumsiness about how our bodies are displayed in some gay people thru to adulthood. Gay children/teens go to great lengths to camouflage this, or distract from it, and it’s always somehow related to trying to hide something about our personality that can’t really be properly hidden. are auspicious, this is not necessarily directly explained.
It’s signaled to us at a young age that certain things about our bodies, our voices, or how we throw a ball, or the kind of hobbies we engage with etc. I think that many gay men in adulthood hold onto a kind of paranoia about physical exposure of their bodies that is connected to paranoia about the exposure of their sexuality in youth.